Have you ever known someone that only speaks to you when they want to boast about their lives? You ever known a friend that will never invite you to events, but the rest of the group do? You ever known someone call you their friend but treat you like a last resort?
Isn’t it strange how we let people that we look up to and admire treat us like this? More than once they abuse your friendship, more than once you try your best to take them off that pedestal, more than once you fail to tell them that they made you feel like rubbish.
In all honesty- I will not tell you to give these people up. Nor will I say there is a way to change them, but maybe there is a way to change yourself? Think about it. Why do we let them treat us like this?
I thought about it for a long time. A really long time. I don’t like myself.
Not in a “I hate everything I do, oh please give my sympathy” kind of way. More in a “I wish I had more self confidence” way.
I lack confidence so much. I always put myself down, and convince myself that I’m joking and I don’t actually believe it; I used to treat myself like I was just here to please everyone else and this sent me a little crazy. I lost a lot of friendships and drank way too much, I am lucky that I haven’t ended up in a worse place in my life. I would have done anything to make sure someone liked me. Not because I wanted to have loads of friends, but because I thought that If I did that, then maybe someone else would do the same for me? I never used to like conflict and I was always so worried that someone might challenge me on my own opinions and views so I became this really weird (not in a fun way), unhappy person trying to make everyone happy. That did not work.
To say the least- I would have been a very different person if it weren’t for my partner. He keeps me feeling confident about myself, he supports me in anything I do, and he always stands by me. He is my best friend (sorry about the cheesiness.)
I’ll still support them in all of their endevours. I’ll even still be their friend, but not at the expense of my own happiness. Because at the end of the day, that’s who I am.