“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”
There was a time in my life was a quiet, shy, sweet girl. I would only say nice things, I would never lash out, I would never lie. But one day that all changed. It wasn’t just one event in life that changed me. It was a few, but I won’t go into that now. That’s a story for another time. After “The change” I became someone I never wanted to be. I was a mean girl. I started swearing all the time , I was aggressive and angry at everything, I drove away friends and family, and was even homeless for a short time. I drank a stupid amount and I made so, so many mistakes I wish I could just forget. For a long time these things were all I would think about. But over the past year I have slowly (and I do mean slowly) coming to terms with a lot of things. One being my past is my past, it doesn’t decide what I do now. “Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.” With that I say to you- are you who you want to be? If not, then what are you doing about it? I have started writing this in order to help me de-stress (it honestly does help) I got a new job where i am beyond appreciated. I moved in with my partner (the first time I’ve ever had a garden!) I hold my breath when I want to swear at someone. I try my best to apologise when I’m in the wrong. I try my best to understand that I can’t change anything that has already happened (I am definitely not a time traveller) I try my best to believe that I can be that good person again.
So, basically I keep asking myself every day; “What am I doing today to be who I want to be?” If i don’t know how to answer it, then I activity try my best to do something. Be it, singing that song to makes me feel good, telling someone I love how much I care about them, or offering cookies to complete strangers on the train. I DO something.
I made the decision to try.
My point that I am trying to come to is; are you the person you want to be? If not, what are you doing to change that?
Remember: Rome wasn’t built in a day, but every accomplishment started with the decision to try.
Let me know in the comments what you do to be the person you want to be.