Why I Am Never Happy

Well, c’mon guys. It’s crazy to say I’m never happy, but I am fairly certain I could be happier.

So, my theory is that I’m not happy simply because I’m not helping others as much as I could. Sure I do my fair share of simple good deeds and sure I will always try my best to help others out, but there is so much more I can do to help!

So (I know you’ll be surprised about this) HERE IS A LIST!:

Things I wanna do to help:

  • Remind my friends daily that they are beautiful.
  • Hang out with some of the elderly- let’s get chatting!
  • Buy strangers more coffee.
  • Send more flowers to strangers.
  • Leave cool notes at resteraunts.
  • Tell bad jokes to customers so they laugh out of pity. (this one is for me really.)
  • Encourage friends and family to go further in their lives.
  • Drink more tea. (how can this NOT make me happy?!)

Well honestly I thought I’d have a bigger list. Fancy helping me out chums? What do you do to make someones day? Or what has someone done for you that has made your day? Please let me know!

Anyway, I need a career where I get to care for others. I need to accomplish my life goal of making the world a better place one person at a time. It’s like Ann Frank always says “How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.” 

SO LETS GET TO IT.

To make everyone happy will make me happy too! Smiles ahoy!

(PS- I’m new to Snapchat and I think it’s hilarious.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cuppa Tea & Time to Type.

Well, hello there my fine feathered friends.

It’s been a while huh?

So, let me catch you up. I’m gonna do it like an episode of an American TV show…

PREVIOUSLY ON TALKTOKATE:

  • Myself and my partner broke up.
  • I have moved house twice.
  • I have moved job twice.
  • I have been in very, very low places.
  • I have drunk a lot of tea.
  • I have met a lot of new people.
  • I have been on many adventures.
  • I have been hurt.
  • I have healed.
  • Most of all… I am okay!

 

So, firstly; me and my partner broke up. Not for any bad reason, nothing happened other than we stopped loving each other the way you should. We became best friends by the end of it and it wasn’t fair on either of us to keep pushing it. We still talk though, we aren’t gonna waste almost 3 years of bonding. We are both happy, and going strong as individuals. He’s pretty cool, and I think I probably am too.

Secondly, GUYS I’VE MOVED HOUSE AND JOBS TWICE. Everything is all over the place! I am not happy in most jobs no matter how hard I try, and I think that is mainly because I’m not helping people (I’ll link ya to ‘Why I Am Never Happy‘!)and I have also moved house twice! Moving is exhausting by the way. In the space of three months I had to pack and unpack all of my belongings twice and make two different places something resembling a home. This is hard by the way. Super hard. (I’ll link ya to ‘Where’s Ya Home At’ soon). But do not fear guys! I have tea and biscuits at hand and I live with absolutely incredible people. It’s only a temporary solution whilst I get myself back on my feet, but these people are so cool for letting me have their spare room during that rollercoaster.

OKAY! So the fun bit! I HAVE BEEN HAVING SO MUCH FUN! I haven’t done any crazy travelling, I don’t really have any crazy stories but what I do have is two new sisters whom I adore. Many new friends and additions to my made up family and exciting new memories that I will cherish forever! (I’ll link ya to ‘My Hand Picked Family’ soon) I have been on midnight picnics, zoo adventures, beach adventures, drinking adventures, work adventures, family adventures… all the adventures, much too many to say! So I’ll post some pictures with this ramble at the bottom so you can take a little look see!

Now the not so fun bit, I haven’t written in  a long time because I have been far too sad. I have hated myself for silly reasons, and I have been a risk to myself too. I get scared to say what I was really feeling, and where my head has been these past few months because I never want to get there again. I had to stop writing because sharing something I didn’t understand myself seemed damn near impossible, but recently I’ve had loads to say and show and so here I am. The past few months have been very emotionally taxing and in all honesty I didn’t know how I was going to make it through it. But I counted to ten and I started again. I have learnt so many new ways of coping with stress, anger, sadness, anxiety, fear, and goodness knows what other emotions have been floating around in that old noggin of mine. Thanks to some fantastic people and my own perseverance I think I’ll be okay. Naaaaah I’m jesting…. I know I’ll be okay.

I hope you wanna read still! Cos I’ve got a lot to write.

 

WATCH THIS SPACE!

 

Where there’s a will there’s a way.

I tell myself a lot of the time that as long as I try my hardest and push myself as much as I can I’ll be able to do anything, but at times if I fail I put myself down quite a bit. So as I walk to work today I’ll listen to motivating music.

Music that makes me take big strides and bop my head like a bobble head on a car dash board. Music that makes me walk with a bounce and tap my fingers. Music that makes me mime along on paths where no one can see, music that reminds me that if I give up I’ll regret it.

Today I’ll get dressed in my favourite jeans, my favourite blue vans, and my favourite yellow jumper and I WILL TAKE ON THE DAY. I will wake up with a groggy smile, I will brush my teeth with a minty smile, I will drink my tea with a big gulp and I WILL TAKE ON THE DAY.

Remember; You’ll fail 100% of shots never taken. So take them.

MORE NEWS TO COME!

What makes you feel determined my internet chums?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why I Love Working In Retail: The Sarcastic Edition.

As you already know retail is currently how I make my living. Selling products to lovely customers from a lovely company with lovely people. But t isn’t always lovely. Here are a few reasons I love working in retail…

1. Customers are sometimes really helpful- they like to give you more work to do by throwing stock on the ground, at you or otherwise hiding it in strange places so that you have more things to do in your already busy day. 

2. You get paid an alright wage- living on minimum wage is easy if you don’t want to eat meat for a little while. And who needs to pay rent anyway? 

3. Customers really appreciate the service you’re giving them- by calling you uneducated, demanding they get discount, simply being verbally abusive, and never saying “Thank You” really makes me smile at the end of the day. 

4. Sometimes the company even shows appreciation for your hard work- They’ll even phone you when you aren’t reaching target because of something that is completely out of your hands and let you know that you are a terrible human being, and lucky for us… They don’t call when you’re doing well through fantastic selling skills. 

5. Customers appreciate that pricing systems are out of our control- They’ll even happily take the product for the lower price after all of their shouting and abuse while also telling us we are terrible human beings. 

6. You get the odd electrician or plumber that doesn’t mind having a nice pleasant chat during their work- They don’t even mind swearing on shop floor, being out right ride to customers and making creepy sexual comments. All in all, they know how to make a member of staff feel comfortable.

7. Customers never expect anything for free- “oh sorry the barcode isn’t scanning” “does that mean I get it for free?” “Why yes it does! Take it! Take it all! The company didn’t want your money anyway! Oh and here is the key to the safe too.”

8. Parents like to make sure that ther children are behaving for us- sometimes they’ll even let them run around with a £1000 scanner and swing off the fixtures. Nothing like a bit of health and safety! 

9. Delivery Drivers are sometimes super helpful and polite- If you’re lucky they’ll help you practice your netball skills and throw the stock off the back of the lorry for you to catch. They will also charmingly- so swear at you because your 5″1tiny weak child like body can’t carry 20 huge boxes at a time. They encourage you to be your best.

10. Last (but by far the final) the company love to make sure that you’re happy with your working environment- They make sure that you can’t get that one song out of your head, you know the one that goes “Dun dun dun dun dun, dun dun dun dun dun dun,” The Ellie Goulding one? They make sure that your work is imprinted into your dreams so much so that you start dreaming of normal work tasks thinking your awake. This just means that you get to work all the time so you can always sort out issues even on your day off!

Although I’m moaning I do enjoy my job, and at the end of the day I generally go home with a smile because I work with some great people. I can prove it! Go check out The nice reasons of why I love working in retail. It’s thrilling!

Of course that doesn’t mean to say that I like the customers.

So do you have any lovely stories about lovely places and lovely companies? What’s your favourite story about a customer?

Celebrating

Recently celebrated mine and my partners anniversary and just wanted to share the adventures we’ve done over this weekend!

We went to over to Exmouth on a Ferry that had a super cute old dog that just walked around in circles waiting for people to stroke him. When we got there we went to a really small (pretty crappy) bowling alley and had a bit of fun (we drew) before heading off to a pub.

We had a drink or two then thought…hey we are pretty hungry and went to find a nice place to eat. We ended up eating at a lovely little place that had fantastic pizza and a lot of Italian speaking people which was pretty cool, after which we thought it would be a great idea to do a bit of tipsy sawn boat driving. (i definitely was the best…well after the crashing.)

We also went to the Zoo! Now, I bloody love the zoo and the Paignton Zoo is one of the leaders in how they take care of the animals etc which is really good too!

One thing that made me giggle (because i’m a grown up.) Is they all kept doing the dirty! They were all very…”active”! Was pretty funny! Anyway. I’ll stop boring you and here are some pictures that aren’t very exciting but I just wanted to share them!

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Don’t get stuck in the negativity

Just give this a quick watch! It is super simple thing to say to start thinking of positives but super hard to do (who knows why?) Well give this a quick watch anyway and have a look for yourself!

Now you have watched that have a think about what went well today?

I am very guilty of moaning and complaining about a lot of things in my life especially last year (things were rough) and it is only recently that I have started getting bored of feeling down and angry and mentally exhausted all the time. So at the moment I am trying my absolute best to say “Well that sucked, but hey it was kind of funny/ nice when…” etc.

I think it is so important to try your best to stay positive and I really hate saying that sometimes because there are times (I think we can all agree) when actually all we want to do is feel sorry for ourselves and we want people to see we have had a bad day.

Something i’ve been trying to do myself is being completely honest with myself. So, for example there other day I had a terrible day. Everything that could have gone wrong at work went wrong. People called in sick, there were refunds flying out of my ears, and there were a million and one jobs to do. As usual, I get home, make a cup of tea (you should all be used to this by now) sit down and I think to myself, did I handle the problems well today? 9 times out of ten I will say “actually yeah, I did!” which is what makes me smile. Understanding that it was ‘technically’ a bad day, but actually my attitude towards it doesn’t have to be negative.

So yet again, what have you done today that has made you smile? What has happened today to make you see the world in a positive way? What do you want to do tomorrow to make sure that positivity is always they way?

A letter to a friend.

The words that break my heart.

“I need to loose weight, I’m not beautiful” My dear friend, beauty is more than what you are seeing on the outside. I know that you are a beautiful person. I’ve never seen someone so beautiful. I don’t just mean your gorgeous eyes, your beautiful smile, your cute hair, or your sexy curves. I mean your heart too.

You have the most beautiful heart. I have never met anyone who loves as full on as you do, loves as easily you do, and see’s the good in even the worst of people. You have been bullied and beaten down so many times in your life and yet you still get back up and find a way to move on. Not just that, but you forgive people after they do this to you.

I don’t believe in heaven, or God, or angels. But if I did, I would say you were an angel. No one else I know would have as much patience as you do with people.

Even when you’ve been let down you carry on. I wish I had your strength and your honesty, and even more, I wish you could see what I see.

My dear friend, please don’t get yourself down. You don’t have a man in your life? That’s okay, because every man I’ve known you to like has not been right for you. You need someone who will sit there and stroke your hair and call you beautiful, you need someone who will understand why you want them to text back so promptly, you need a man that understands your insecurities and makes you forget them. That man does exist, I found mine when I didn’t think I ever would.

My dear friend, you are a funny one. You have the sweetest laugh and a gorgeous smile and I love seeing it more often recently.

Relish the single days because it won’t be long that you’ll look back on them and think “That was an amazing time I had. Oh and that cute boy… he was a bit of alright” remember the moments that you get to flirt and the moments you get to dance with random guys ( I know what you’re like on a night out!).

You never know when you will bump into “Mr Right”, and even better? He doesn’t know he’s going to bump into his “Mrs Right”.

I love you. You are beautiful. Never forget that.