Why I Am Never Happy

Well, c’mon guys. It’s crazy to say I’m never happy, but I am fairly certain I could be happier.

So, my theory is that I’m not happy simply because I’m not helping others as much as I could. Sure I do my fair share of simple good deeds and sure I will always try my best to help others out, but there is so much more I can do to help!

So (I know you’ll be surprised about this) HERE IS A LIST!:

Things I wanna do to help:

  • Remind my friends daily that they are beautiful.
  • Hang out with some of the elderly- let’s get chatting!
  • Buy strangers more coffee.
  • Send more flowers to strangers.
  • Leave cool notes at resteraunts.
  • Tell bad jokes to customers so they laugh out of pity. (this one is for me really.)
  • Encourage friends and family to go further in their lives.
  • Drink more tea. (how can this NOT make me happy?!)

Well honestly I thought I’d have a bigger list. Fancy helping me out chums? What do you do to make someones day? Or what has someone done for you that has made your day? Please let me know!

Anyway, I need a career where I get to care for others. I need to accomplish my life goal of making the world a better place one person at a time. It’s like Ann Frank always says “How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.” 

SO LETS GET TO IT.

To make everyone happy will make me happy too! Smiles ahoy!

(PS- I’m new to Snapchat and I think it’s hilarious.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cuppa Tea & Time to Type.

Well, hello there my fine feathered friends.

It’s been a while huh?

So, let me catch you up. I’m gonna do it like an episode of an American TV show…

PREVIOUSLY ON TALKTOKATE:

  • Myself and my partner broke up.
  • I have moved house twice.
  • I have moved job twice.
  • I have been in very, very low places.
  • I have drunk a lot of tea.
  • I have met a lot of new people.
  • I have been on many adventures.
  • I have been hurt.
  • I have healed.
  • Most of all… I am okay!

 

So, firstly; me and my partner broke up. Not for any bad reason, nothing happened other than we stopped loving each other the way you should. We became best friends by the end of it and it wasn’t fair on either of us to keep pushing it. We still talk though, we aren’t gonna waste almost 3 years of bonding. We are both happy, and going strong as individuals. He’s pretty cool, and I think I probably am too.

Secondly, GUYS I’VE MOVED HOUSE AND JOBS TWICE. Everything is all over the place! I am not happy in most jobs no matter how hard I try, and I think that is mainly because I’m not helping people (I’ll link ya to ‘Why I Am Never Happy‘!)and I have also moved house twice! Moving is exhausting by the way. In the space of three months I had to pack and unpack all of my belongings twice and make two different places something resembling a home. This is hard by the way. Super hard. (I’ll link ya to ‘Where’s Ya Home At’ soon). But do not fear guys! I have tea and biscuits at hand and I live with absolutely incredible people. It’s only a temporary solution whilst I get myself back on my feet, but these people are so cool for letting me have their spare room during that rollercoaster.

OKAY! So the fun bit! I HAVE BEEN HAVING SO MUCH FUN! I haven’t done any crazy travelling, I don’t really have any crazy stories but what I do have is two new sisters whom I adore. Many new friends and additions to my made up family and exciting new memories that I will cherish forever! (I’ll link ya to ‘My Hand Picked Family’ soon) I have been on midnight picnics, zoo adventures, beach adventures, drinking adventures, work adventures, family adventures… all the adventures, much too many to say! So I’ll post some pictures with this ramble at the bottom so you can take a little look see!

Now the not so fun bit, I haven’t written in  a long time because I have been far too sad. I have hated myself for silly reasons, and I have been a risk to myself too. I get scared to say what I was really feeling, and where my head has been these past few months because I never want to get there again. I had to stop writing because sharing something I didn’t understand myself seemed damn near impossible, but recently I’ve had loads to say and show and so here I am. The past few months have been very emotionally taxing and in all honesty I didn’t know how I was going to make it through it. But I counted to ten and I started again. I have learnt so many new ways of coping with stress, anger, sadness, anxiety, fear, and goodness knows what other emotions have been floating around in that old noggin of mine. Thanks to some fantastic people and my own perseverance I think I’ll be okay. Naaaaah I’m jesting…. I know I’ll be okay.

I hope you wanna read still! Cos I’ve got a lot to write.

 

WATCH THIS SPACE!

 

Time To Feel Sexy

So this morning I woke up and looked at myself as I prepared to go for a run. I thought I am not happy with the way I look. Not in a “oh god I’m so horrible I hate myself I’m going to go cry over my cup of tea this morning” kind of way. Just a simple “This is how I want to look” kind of way. So I have decided to take up a dancing class.

1- because I can’t dance for my life and it will be hilarious to watch me try. (Maybe I’ll post videos so you can all laugh at me. Honestly I don’t mind if you do. I would. I will.)

2- because I want to gain a skill. (going back to number 1…honestly…it’ll be great if i can.)

3- (the most important.) I want to feel good about myself and I honestly think that doing pole fitness will be the one to help make that happen.

Pole fitness is a great workout in many ways. It works out every muscle and helps strengthen them so they actually become strong rather than just toning to look good (though I hope that happens too.) It’s also a fairly low impact one so it won’t be bad for my knees (call the 1940’s they let me loose in the future. Such an old woman.)

Anyway if you guys have’t seen how amazing pole fitness looks just go onto Youtube. Seriously there are some mega talented people out there- one girl is only like 8 years old and she is basically my idol now. She did some amazing things on the pole and I can bet your bum that she is stronger than me too. I hope to be as good as the little gal one day!

So I have now set myself a task to do this to see if doing something like pole fitness or general dance classes can help you feel more positive about yourself.

Will update you when I take first lessons and such.

What talents do you guys wish you had? Let me know! Let’s see if we can share some secret tips!

Must dash! My tea is getting cold!

Support and Thank yous.

Just wanted to say a quick thank you.

Thank you for supporting me and believing that I can do anything even when I thought I couldn’t.

Thank you for telling me to “shut up” when I doubted myself.

Thank you for telling me to “Do it!” when I stopped thinking I could.

Support is a funny thing. I like to be pretty independent so never really thought I needed much support, but as it turns out I’m wrong! (frame that, I don’t admit that often!) I need just as much support as any normal person. Without it I would have cried and cried and cried when I failed with out being able to say “Well forget this! I’m gonna try again!” Without it I would most likely be a very bitter person. Hating all my failures thinking i’d never be able to do anything again.

Buuuuut because of you I know I can do anything if iI keep up with my persistence.

You make me feel like I am actually able to do anything. So I’ll plan to travel, I’ll plan for when I pass my courses, I’ll plan for my future with out doubts. Because I have the best support even if I don’t get where I thought I would.

So, Thank you for making me believe the world isn’t just a sucky place!