Why I Am Never Happy

Well, c’mon guys. It’s crazy to say I’m never happy, but I am fairly certain I could be happier.

So, my theory is that I’m not happy simply because I’m not helping others as much as I could. Sure I do my fair share of simple good deeds and sure I will always try my best to help others out, but there is so much more I can do to help!

So (I know you’ll be surprised about this) HERE IS A LIST!:

Things I wanna do to help:

  • Remind my friends daily that they are beautiful.
  • Hang out with some of the elderly- let’s get chatting!
  • Buy strangers more coffee.
  • Send more flowers to strangers.
  • Leave cool notes at resteraunts.
  • Tell bad jokes to customers so they laugh out of pity. (this one is for me really.)
  • Encourage friends and family to go further in their lives.
  • Drink more tea. (how can this NOT make me happy?!)

Well honestly I thought I’d have a bigger list. Fancy helping me out chums? What do you do to make someones day? Or what has someone done for you that has made your day? Please let me know!

Anyway, I need a career where I get to care for others. I need to accomplish my life goal of making the world a better place one person at a time. It’s like Ann Frank always says “How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.” 

SO LETS GET TO IT.

To make everyone happy will make me happy too! Smiles ahoy!

(PS- I’m new to Snapchat and I think it’s hilarious.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cuppa Tea & Time to Type.

Well, hello there my fine feathered friends.

It’s been a while huh?

So, let me catch you up. I’m gonna do it like an episode of an American TV show…

PREVIOUSLY ON TALKTOKATE:

  • Myself and my partner broke up.
  • I have moved house twice.
  • I have moved job twice.
  • I have been in very, very low places.
  • I have drunk a lot of tea.
  • I have met a lot of new people.
  • I have been on many adventures.
  • I have been hurt.
  • I have healed.
  • Most of all… I am okay!

 

So, firstly; me and my partner broke up. Not for any bad reason, nothing happened other than we stopped loving each other the way you should. We became best friends by the end of it and it wasn’t fair on either of us to keep pushing it. We still talk though, we aren’t gonna waste almost 3 years of bonding. We are both happy, and going strong as individuals. He’s pretty cool, and I think I probably am too.

Secondly, GUYS I’VE MOVED HOUSE AND JOBS TWICE. Everything is all over the place! I am not happy in most jobs no matter how hard I try, and I think that is mainly because I’m not helping people (I’ll link ya to ‘Why I Am Never Happy‘!)and I have also moved house twice! Moving is exhausting by the way. In the space of three months I had to pack and unpack all of my belongings twice and make two different places something resembling a home. This is hard by the way. Super hard. (I’ll link ya to ‘Where’s Ya Home At’ soon). But do not fear guys! I have tea and biscuits at hand and I live with absolutely incredible people. It’s only a temporary solution whilst I get myself back on my feet, but these people are so cool for letting me have their spare room during that rollercoaster.

OKAY! So the fun bit! I HAVE BEEN HAVING SO MUCH FUN! I haven’t done any crazy travelling, I don’t really have any crazy stories but what I do have is two new sisters whom I adore. Many new friends and additions to my made up family and exciting new memories that I will cherish forever! (I’ll link ya to ‘My Hand Picked Family’ soon) I have been on midnight picnics, zoo adventures, beach adventures, drinking adventures, work adventures, family adventures… all the adventures, much too many to say! So I’ll post some pictures with this ramble at the bottom so you can take a little look see!

Now the not so fun bit, I haven’t written in  a long time because I have been far too sad. I have hated myself for silly reasons, and I have been a risk to myself too. I get scared to say what I was really feeling, and where my head has been these past few months because I never want to get there again. I had to stop writing because sharing something I didn’t understand myself seemed damn near impossible, but recently I’ve had loads to say and show and so here I am. The past few months have been very emotionally taxing and in all honesty I didn’t know how I was going to make it through it. But I counted to ten and I started again. I have learnt so many new ways of coping with stress, anger, sadness, anxiety, fear, and goodness knows what other emotions have been floating around in that old noggin of mine. Thanks to some fantastic people and my own perseverance I think I’ll be okay. Naaaaah I’m jesting…. I know I’ll be okay.

I hope you wanna read still! Cos I’ve got a lot to write.

 

WATCH THIS SPACE!

 

Where there’s a will there’s a way.

I tell myself a lot of the time that as long as I try my hardest and push myself as much as I can I’ll be able to do anything, but at times if I fail I put myself down quite a bit. So as I walk to work today I’ll listen to motivating music.

Music that makes me take big strides and bop my head like a bobble head on a car dash board. Music that makes me walk with a bounce and tap my fingers. Music that makes me mime along on paths where no one can see, music that reminds me that if I give up I’ll regret it.

Today I’ll get dressed in my favourite jeans, my favourite blue vans, and my favourite yellow jumper and I WILL TAKE ON THE DAY. I will wake up with a groggy smile, I will brush my teeth with a minty smile, I will drink my tea with a big gulp and I WILL TAKE ON THE DAY.

Remember; You’ll fail 100% of shots never taken. So take them.

MORE NEWS TO COME!

What makes you feel determined my internet chums?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Celebrating

Recently celebrated mine and my partners anniversary and just wanted to share the adventures we’ve done over this weekend!

We went to over to Exmouth on a Ferry that had a super cute old dog that just walked around in circles waiting for people to stroke him. When we got there we went to a really small (pretty crappy) bowling alley and had a bit of fun (we drew) before heading off to a pub.

We had a drink or two then thought…hey we are pretty hungry and went to find a nice place to eat. We ended up eating at a lovely little place that had fantastic pizza and a lot of Italian speaking people which was pretty cool, after which we thought it would be a great idea to do a bit of tipsy sawn boat driving. (i definitely was the best…well after the crashing.)

We also went to the Zoo! Now, I bloody love the zoo and the Paignton Zoo is one of the leaders in how they take care of the animals etc which is really good too!

One thing that made me giggle (because i’m a grown up.) Is they all kept doing the dirty! They were all very…”active”! Was pretty funny! Anyway. I’ll stop boring you and here are some pictures that aren’t very exciting but I just wanted to share them!

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Getting Somewhere

So, What’s happened since I was last here?

Not much to be honest,I have been told that I have basically got the job that I went for! I am pretty surprised because there was someone else who I thought was going to get at as he was really quite good!

To go along with my application I started trying my best to turn things around in the store. I’m quite lucky because I work with a team that are almost as enthusiastic about the turn around as me. It’s becoming a bit of a family. By that I mean they’re all a little crazy, and we most likely get on each others nerves quite a bit but I am very happy to be working with the loons!

Anyway, it’s only recently that I have really seen a team work together to get to the end of the tunnel and it is pretty fantastic. I can’t wait to get the official answer so I can celebrate with them and say a proper “Thank you” because they deserve it.

We are all little worker bees working together to make the best out of work, and i think that’s just wonderful.

My point really is; don’t forget that your actions have consequences that aren’t always bad. Remember that sometimes just being a little bit upbeat and genuinely wanting to help can help someone else too. Be it making them smile when they get stressed, being on the other side of the table with a drink in your hand to listen to rambling, or even be the one to physically help pick up the boxes of stock and carrying them up and down a million flights of stairs. Just remember that helping others in any way possible means the world can move in a more positive way.

Even if you’re having a bad day try your best to do one act of random kindness a day!

Go! Go! Go!